Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Growing Up With 2 Moms: The Untold Story

"The children of same sex couples have a tough road ahead of them---I know, because I have been there."


Robert Oscar Lopez, writing for the Witherspoon Institutes's "Public Discourse" says, "Growing up with gay parents was very difficult, and not because of prejudice from neighbors." The neighbors, he says, didn't even know what was going on in our house.

Lopez gives an honest, open account of the negative, often damaging effects of growing up with same sex parents. He also talks openly about the force with which the homosexual community defines someone like himself as "gay," regardless of his orientations.


The Witherspoon piece also includes a link to a recent survey of children raised in a same sex home. The survey, conducted by Mark Regnerus, discovers parallel stories to that of Lopez.

It is not the happy face, we're normal just like your story, homosexual Senator Ed Murray, advocate Senator Cheryl Pflug, homosexual Representative Jamie Pederson and their advocates are putting on "family" and "marriage" in their effort to redefine it.

For the most part it is a sad, tragic story of kids who are highly controlled socially, resulting in dysfunction and confusion. Hurts and scars that most of us can not grasp.

And ironically, most homosexuals who are advocating to normalize the" homosexual family," assuring everyone its normal, didn't grow up in one.

For all who sincerely care about the assault on marriage and family, this is a story you must read and a survey you must be aware of. 

Lopez is presently assistant professor of English at Cal. State University-Northridge.

Today is primary election in Washington State. I am watching it closely as I'm sure you are. Some indication of where the state stands on moral and social issues will begin to emerge today.

Those identified in the top two categories of all races, but particularly statewide races, and the numbers of votes cast for certain candidates will be revealing as to where the collective conviction and morality stands across the state.

We will discuss this tomorrow.


Growing Up With Two Moms: The Untold Children’s View
by Robert Oscar Lopez
August 6, 2012

The children of same-sex couples have a tough road ahead of them—I know, because I have been there. The last thing we should do is make them feel guilty if the strain gets to them and they feel strange.

Between 1973 and 1990, when my beloved mother passed away, she and her female romantic partner raised me. They had separate houses but spent nearly all their weekends together, with me, in a trailer tucked discreetly in an RV park 50 minutes away from the town where we lived. As the youngest of my mother’s biological children, I was the only child who experienced childhood without my father being around.

After my mother’s partner’s children had left for college, she moved into our house in town. I lived with both of them for the brief time before my mother died at the age of 53. I was 19. In other words, I was the only child who experienced life under “gay parenting” as that term is understood today.

Quite simply, growing up with gay parents was very difficult, and not because of prejudice from neighbors. People in our community didn’t really know what was going on in the house. To most outside observers, I was a well-raised, high-achieving child, finishing high school with straight A’s.

Inside, however, I was confused. When your home life is so drastically different from everyone around you, in a fundamental way striking at basic physical relations, you grow up weird. I have no mental health disorders or biological conditions. I just grew up in a house so unusual that I was destined to exist as a social outcast.

My peers learned all the unwritten rules of decorum and body language in their homes; they understood what was appropriate to say in certain settings and what wasn’t; they learned both traditionally masculine and traditionally feminine social mechanisms.

Even if my peers’ parents were divorced, and many of them were, they still grew up seeing male and female social models. They learned, typically, how to be bold and unflinching from male figures and how to write thank-you cards and be sensitive from female figures. These are stereotypes, of course, but stereotypes come in handy when you inevitably leave the safety of your lesbian mom’s trailer and have to work and survive in a world where everybody thinks in stereotypical terms, even gays.

I had no male figure at all to follow, and my mother and her partner were both unlike traditional fathers or traditional mothers. As a result, I had very few recognizable social cues to offer potential male or female friends, since I was neither confident nor sensitive to others. Thus I befriended people rarely and alienated others easily. Gay people who grew up in straight parents’ households may have struggled with their sexual orientation; but when it came to the vast social universe of adaptations not dealing with sexuality—how to act, how to speak, how to behave—they had the advantage of learning at home. Many gays don’t realize what a blessing it was to be reared in a traditional home.

My home life was not traditional nor conventional. I suffered because of it, in ways that are difficult for sociologists to index. Both nervous and yet blunt, I would later seem strange even in the eyes of gay and bisexual adults who had little patience for someone like me. I was just as odd to them as I was to straight people.

Life is hard when you are strange. Even now, I have very few friends and often feel as though I do not understand people because of the unspoken gender cues that everyone around me, even gays raised in traditional homes, takes for granted. Though I am hard-working and a quick learner, I have trouble in professional settings because co-workers find me bizarre.

In terms of sexuality, gays who grew up in traditional households benefited from at least seeing some kind of functional courtship rituals around them. I had no clue how to make myself attractive to girls. When I stepped outside of my mothers’ trailer, I was immediately tagged as an outcast because of my girlish mannerisms, funny clothes, lisp, and outlandishness. Not surprisingly, I left high school as a virgin, never having had a girlfriend, instead having gone to four proms as a wisecracking sidekick to girls who just wanted someone to chip in for a limousine.

When I got to college, I set off everyone’s “gaydar” and the campus LGBT group quickly descended upon me to tell me it was 100-percent certain I must be a homosexual. When I came out as bisexual, they told everyone I was lying and just wasn’t ready to come out of the closet as gay yet. Frightened and traumatized by my mother’s death, I dropped out of college in 1990 and fell in with what can only be called the gay underworld. Terrible things happened to me there.

It was not until I was twenty-eight that I suddenly found myself in a relationship with a woman, through coincidences that shocked everyone who knew me and surprised even myself. I call myself bisexual because it would take several novels to explain how I ended up “straight” after almost thirty years as a gay man. I don’t feel like dealing with gay activists skewering me the way they go on search-and-destroy missions against ex-gays, “closet cases,” or “homocons.”

Though I have a biography particularly relevant to gay issues, the first person who contacted me to thank me for sharing my perspective on LGBT issues was Mark Regnerus, in an email dated July 17, 2012. I was not part of his massive survey, but he noticed a comment I’d left on a website about it and took the initiative to begin an email correspondence.

Forty-one years I’d lived, and nobody—least of all gay activists—had wanted me to speak honestly about the complicated gay threads of my life. If for no other reason than this, Mark Regnerus deserves tremendous credit—and the gay community ought to be crediting him rather than trying to silence him.

Regnerus’s study identified 248 adult children of parents who had same-sex romantic relationships. Offered a chance to provide frank responses with the hindsight of adulthood, they gave reports unfavorable to the gay marriage equality agenda. Yet the results are backed up by an important thing in life called common sense: Growing up different from other people is difficult and the difficulties raise the risk that children will develop maladjustments or self-medicate with alcohol and other dangerous behaviors. Each of those 248 is a human story, no doubt with many complexities.

Like my story, these 248 people’s stories deserve to be told. The gay movement is doing everything it can to make sure that nobody hears them. But I care more about the stories than the numbers (especially as an English professor), and Regnerus stumbled unwittingly on a narrative treasure chest.

So why the code of silence from LGBT leaders? I can only speculate from where I’m sitting. I cherish my mother’s memory, but I don’t mince words when talking about how hard it was to grow up in a gay household. Earlier studies examined children still living with their gay parents, so the kids were not at liberty to speak, governed as all children are by filial piety, guilt, and fear of losing their allowances. For trying to speak honestly, I’ve been squelched, literally, for decades.

The latest attempt at trying to silence stories (and data) such as mine comes from Darren E. Sherkat, a professor of sociology at Southern Illinois University at Carbondale, who gave an interview to Tom Bartlett of the Chronicle of Higher Education, in which he said—and I quote—that Mark Regnerus’s study was “bullshit.” Bartlett’s article continues:

Among the problems Sherkat identified is the paper’s definition of “lesbian mothers” and “gay fathers”—an aspect that has been the focus of much of the public criticism. A woman could be identified as a “lesbian mother” in the study if she had had a relationship with another woman at any point after having a child, regardless of the brevity of that relationship and whether or not the two women raised the child as a couple.

Sherkat said that fact alone in the paper should have “disqualified it immediately” from being considered for publication.

The problem with Sherkat’s disqualification of Regnerus’s work is a manifold chicken-and-egg conundrum. Though Sherkat uses the term “LGBT” in the same interview with Bartlett, he privileges that L and G and discriminates severely against the B, bisexuals.

Where do children of LGBT parents come from? If the parents are 100-percent gay or lesbian, then the chances are that the children were conceived through surrogacy or insemination, or else adopted. Those cases are such a tiny percentage of LGBT parents, however, that it would be virtually impossible to find more than a half-dozen in a random sampling of tens of thousands of adults.

Most LGBT parents are, like me, and technically like my mother, “bisexual”—the forgotten B. We conceived our children because we engaged in heterosexual intercourse. Social complications naturally arise if you conceive a child with the opposite sex but still have attractions to the same sex. Sherkat calls these complications disqualifiable, as they are corrupting the purity of a homosexual model of parenting.

I would posit that children raised by same-sex couples are naturally going to be more curious about and experimental with homosexuality without necessarily being pure of any attraction to the opposite sex. Hence they will more likely fall into the bisexual category, as did I—meaning that the children of LGBT parents, once they are young adults, are likely to be the first ones disqualified by the social scientists who now claim to advocate for their parents.

Those who are 100-percent gay may view bisexuals with a mix of disgust and envy. Bisexual parents threaten the core of the LGBT parenting narrative—we do have a choice to live as gay or straight, and we do have to decide the gender configuration of the household in which our children will grow up. While some gays see bisexuality as an easier position, the fact is that bisexual parents bear a more painful weight on their shoulders. Unlike homosexuals, we cannot write off our decisions as things forced on us by nature. We have no choice but to take responsibility for what we do as parents, and live with the guilt, regret, and self-criticism forever.

Our children do not arrive with clean legal immunity. As a man, though I am bisexual, I do not get to throw away the mother of my child as if she is a used incubator. I had to help my wife through the difficulties of pregnancy and postpartum depression. When she is struggling with discrimination against mothers or women at a sexist workplace, I have to be patient and listen. I must attend to her sexual needs. Once I was a father, I put aside my own homosexual past and vowed never to divorce my wife or take up with another person, male or female, before I died. I chose that commitment in order to protect my children from dealing with harmful drama, even as they grow up to be adults. When you are a parent, ethical questions revolve around your children and you put away your self-interest . . . forever.

Sherkat’s assessment of Regnerus’s work shows a total disregard for the emotional and sexual labor that bisexual parents contribute to their children. Bisexual parents must wrestle with their duties as parents while still contending with the temptations to enter into same-sex relationships. The turbulence documented in Mark Regnerus’s study is a testament to how hard that is. Rather than threatening, it is a reminder of the burden I carry and a goad to concern myself first and foremost with my children’s needs, not my sexual desires.

The other chicken-and-egg problem of Sherkat’s dismissal deals with conservative ideology. Many have dismissed my story with four simple words: “But you are conservative.” Yes, I am. How did I get that way? I moved to the right wing because I lived in precisely the kind of anti-normative, marginalized, and oppressed identity environment that the left celebrates: I am a bisexual Latino intellectual, raised by a lesbian, who experienced poverty in the Bronx as a young adult. I’m perceptive enough to notice that liberal social policies don’t actually help people in those conditions. Especially damning is the liberal attitude that we shouldn’t be judgmental about sex. In the Bronx gay world, I cleaned out enough apartments of men who’d died of AIDS to understand that resistance to sexual temptation is central to any kind of humane society. Sex can be hurtful not only because of infectious diseases but also because it leaves us vulnerable and more likely to cling to people who don’t love us, mourn those who leave us, and not know how to escape those who need us but whom we don’t love. The left understands none of that. That’s why I am conservative.

So yes, I am conservative and support Regnerus’s findings. Or is it that Regnerus’s findings revisit the things that made me conservative in the first place? Sherkat must figure that one out.

Having lived for forty-one years as a strange man, I see it as tragically fitting that the first instinct of experts and gay activists is to exclude my life profile as unfit for any “data sample,” or as Dr. Sherkat calls it, “bullshit.” So the game has gone for at least twenty-five years. For all the talk about LGBT alliances, bisexuality falls by the wayside, thanks to scholars such as Sherkat. For all the chatter about a “queer” movement, queer activists are just as likely to restrict their social circles to professionalized, normal people who know how to throw charming parties, make small talk, and blend in with the Art Deco furniture.

I thank Mark Regnerus. Far from being “bullshit,” his work is affirming to me, because it acknowledges what the gay activist movement has sought laboriously to erase, or at least ignore. Whether homosexuality is chosen or inbred, whether gay marriage gets legalized or not, being strange is hard; it takes a mental toll, makes it harder to find friends, interferes with professional growth, and sometimes leads one down a sodden path to self-medication in the form of alcoholism, drugs, gambling, antisocial behavior, and irresponsible sex. The children of same-sex couples have a tough road ahead of them—I know, because I have been there. The last thing we should do is make them feel guilty if the strain gets to them and they feel strange. We owe them, at the least, a dose of honesty. Thank you, Mark Regnerus, for taking the time to listen.

Robert Lopez is assistant professor of English at California State University-Northridge. He is the author of Colorful Conservative: American Conversations with the Ancients from Wheatley to Whitman. This year he will be publishing novels he wrote in the 1990s and 2000s.


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21 comments:

  1. Wow! No wonder the gays want to ignore this or silence it.

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  2. I'm sorry, I think using this was an error. I sympothize with this guy. However, I was raised by a mother and father, having both to teach me the different Male/female roles. My father taught me that its ok to beat women because they are nothing but our slaves. Also, he taught me that you sexually abuse your kids so that they know who's in control. my point? Well, come on now. You can point fingers saying this wrong, but it does go both ways. Since the gay population is only that of a fraction of the whole, we can find a lot more stories about terrible examples of how straight people raise kids and what they have to go through. very bad taste, Gary.

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  3. 11:11 So typical and predictible. Attack the writer, attack the survey, attack Gary for bringing it to our attention. How about attacking the problem by looking at honest solutions?

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  4. 11:18, I was not attacking anyone. I was just pointing out that there are issues on both sides. and to point out one like this is just sad. I mean there are a lot of other things that we could use without pointing fingers to who's a better parent. P.S. I am no where near support for gay rights or gay marriage. I just think that something like this story is trying to say that straight parents are better. and that is not always true. thanks for the attack of my opinion though. Have blessed day!

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  5. OK, this guy had bad parents. Should all gay couples -- no matter how good they are, no matter what positive values they instill in their children, no matter how well they raise their children -- be denied marriage because of this man's story?

    If so, get ready, because it's easy to dig up bad-heterosexual-parent stories, too.

    What a cheap shot.

    Seriously, how far will you take this hypocritical line of reasoning? Straight couples, we are told, NEED marriage to MAKE them better parents and to keep them together. Gay couples DO NOT DESERVE marriage for the same reasons.

    Sheesh.

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  6. Thank you for sharing this article. I found it fascinating to hear from someone's personal experience. I think this type of insight is absolutely necessary.

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  7. 12:21 "This guy" is not trying to make the point that he had bad parents. Lopez is being honest about the difficulties growing up in a homosexual family. He's telling the truth and obviously you can't handle it. He's talking about the environment created, not whether they are good or bad parents. He is also not talking about who deserves and who does not deserve to be married, he is talking about the negative consequences of redefining the family to support sexual behavior. This is not a contest to prove who are the better parents, it is about protecting the better model for the children in a marriage. Gay marriage primarily considers the sexual preferences of the couple. Traditional marriage does not. Did you read the survey? I did.

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  8. Unfortunately their are bad hetero parents. That is not what this about. It's about how having two mommies or two daddies impacts a child. It isn't a cheap shot, its the truth from this man and the survey result is the truth from the others interviewed. The truth is hardly hypocritical.

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  9. Gays themselves are always talking about how hard it is to be gay in a straight society. That's probably why they try to identify with the civil rights movement. If its that difficult, why are gays so anxious to pass the consequences of their sexual preferences and those difficulties on to innocent children who have no choice?

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  10. If Mr Lopez states "I was the only child who experienced childhood without my father being around." did he have syblings? How is he the only one? If all he was around was women I could see that. But, uncles, brothers, male friends? I just don't see how you could not have male role models in your life. Grandpa's? I am just so confused. I had all these and more.

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    1. He did mention his siblings, though not what sex they were. Obviously, other male figures aren't always a sub for a father. Look at studies of men raised only be their moms, a lot of the same dysfunctional traits can be found there as well.

      Craig in Lacey

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  11. Gary ,thank you for sharing this story. Jesus said that the truth will set you free. While that is true, one must accept the truth before it can free you. Gays are not willing to accept the truth because it does not validate their sexual behavior.

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  12. This article and survey is very helpful for those considering how they are going to vote on gay marriage. Gay marriage creates many negative consequences, even if unintended.

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  13. While you folks see this as an argument against gay marriage, I see it as an argument against continuing the discrimination. It's only hard to be gay in a straight society if that society discriminates.

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    1. Its hard to be anyone in this present society . The victim card and the blame game gets old . The Gay political activists decided to play the civil rights game , you went along with it . Cause politics gets nasty , and people will demonize you because of it is just part of it . Religious persons can play the same victim game .

      Homosexuals thinking that because they are mis treated that culture has to re write morality and beliefs is not a sign of them being discriminated against , as chick fil a showed its their politics being a model for fascism.

      You think because Marriage is allowed under the law things will get better , that history will show your right ? About as right as abortion rights showed . Its counter to human nature to kill the unborn out of selfishness as it is to promote using the UN natural ways of the body to obtain society's blessing for parental rights .

      Because some disagrees with your life style you have particpated in propganda war that it means people hate you . Your wrong , and people are fed up with it . Not you , your disgusting and hate filled attemt to smear anything good that disagrees with you in the same brush that you smear anything bad .

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    2. "You think because Marriage is allowed under the law things will get better , that history will show your right ?"

      Yes. But, not just because of marriage equality. Marriage equality will occur because people are becoming more enlightened.

      "Because some disagrees with your life style you have particpated in propganda war that it means people hate you ."

      I hate to burst your stereotype, but I'm an old married heterosexual with two children. Not everyone supporting marriage equality is gay.

      Please do us all a favor, get a grammar and spell checker.

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    3. Enlightened? You mean like 50+ million murdered babies and counting? I think we're kidding ourselves.

      Craig in Lacey

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  14. This is one of the most honest, heartfelt, thoughtful and thought-provoking articles I've read in some time. A wonderful testimony to perseverance on his part and a brave man to boot to invite ridicule for speaking from experience.

    No matter a persons stance on this issue, it gives one pause to consider the unintended consequences of our behavior.

    Thanks, Gary and staff, keep the light on!!!!

    Craig in Lacey

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  15. pastor in Renton8:29 PM, August 07, 2012

    I second it. Keep the light on. Many of the people in my church read your posts, sometimes we print portions of them in our service information sheet. Keep standing strong and keep the light on. Our prayers are with you. Get well soon.

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  16. Gary, thank you for being faithful to bring this to our attention. I don't always agree with you, but I do always appreciate your honesty, and I respect your willingness to come under fire for speaking out your convictions here. The Word says "Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is —his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2 (NIV) May the Holy Spirit renew and challenge you, Gary, and may you seek Him first in all that you do

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